Dear Readers,

It was a mistake to break the chain of trust. i dont want to lose a good friend of mine. A close friend of mine. I dont want the hardship we went through to go to waste.. although i may sound gay in this post but i dont give a bloody damn fuck of what people want to think of me. 15years of friendship. Just one bloody simple mistake and problem. i blasted out with all my will. I even gave a blow at him.Not once , not twice butcountless punches i gave.without the help of my friends, i wouldnt even have the mind to control myself.I wouldnt have the willto stop. Why?why am i that stupid to goo crazy till i have to hurt someone else. I guess, its not only the physical pain i hadcaused but mentally and all. I just dont know how should i apologise the doings that i have done. I dont even know how to pull the string back..Fuckk.why there must be such an awfully fight to occur at such time.
I just couldnt hold back the tear im holding on. i dont know how should i stop this river of sadness.Fuck, im regreting this real bad. i never had this great regretion feeling before.Maybe its because of a friend i truly treasure the most.

guess thats all.cya