Alright peeps,
Here i go,,
i'm in bad shape as you guys can see...
Ive been wondering whats this frustration going on in my head.. i needed somebody to talk to. I really needed somebody, i approach and i tried. but at end of the day. i did not get a chance to pour it all out. i truly want to pour it here but its a little inappropriate and unprofessional as i feel that my words might get someone else misunderstanding. Every single thing i do, every single word i say, there's meaning behind it. i twisted all those words and action so that it
aint gonna be easy to catch the "Actual" thoughts in me .. I was in need of help..
On top of my selfish behaviour and actions,
im sorry for making you disappointed and cried because i was self centered. i
didnt know that i went too far because of my personal things that cause this chaotic disaster to be huge and unimaginable
distruction.
It was all "thanks" to the people around me that made me in such frustration that drove me mad. this anger in me, its over powering and its taking control of my self conscious!
Why
didnt i get the chance to have somebody who would be there when i needed them the most.
Why
didnt i get the chance to change what i used to have then what
ive lost.
Countless words, from pages to pages. those phrases and sentences,i wrote in despair . in the true nature of what i feel and what i truly believed.
On the other segment.
i
Dont want just another pretty face,
ive going around, in a circle. finding that only chance to see what other's feel about me.what others truly think about me.
Yea, i may be someone nice
bla bla and
bla. but
thats not the point of what i want to see, i want to see how truly
i'm capable of. what i truly am towards the person that
im surrounded with.
This just makes me think that i should start anew on a new chapter,on a new page
& on a new BOOK
~
Farid~
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